Exhaustion
Feb 22nd
What is exhaustion really? I have been working 14-18 hours a day, and when I finally come home, I instantly become weak and fatigued.
Throughout my journey in life currently, I did however realize that the small things in life are the influencing factors in my ability to become successful. This influence has became my innermost drive to live in my current day situations, because lets be honest, I really don’t have a life at all. Here is the exact schedule to my current day : wake up, school, work sleep. I feel that this path have taken me further into abysmal, I neglected my friends, isolated family members and loved ones, and spend my spare time trying to grow my business. After years of studying business, I’ve never realized that after being in the field is a whole different story. This brings me to the fact of preparation. You can prepare as much as you want and you can take as long of a time to get ready, but when you actually begin is when everything start to matter in your life.
It is exactly 2:57am in the morning, and I haven’t been able to sleep.
GOOD MORNING HAWAII…
What are we fighting for?
Jan 23rd
There are so many thoughts that come into my mind, its driving me crazy. Life gives us so many obstacles, and it expects us to jump through everyone of them like shining stars. But the reality is that none of us are able to jump like shining stars. Sure we might have the potential to overcome everything that we got, but in the end it seems like we just fight to lose. Everyone is going to die sooner or later, but why do we even bother to fight? Life handed me an opportunity of starting a new business, but in the end it feels like I’ve exchanged everything that I’ve got in order to make it happen.
I have a feeling that I won’t be sleeping tonight.
My View on Love
Jan 20th
I have seen this way too many times. While I was driving from Waimanalo to Pearl City I was listening to the radio about all these stupid dumb ass dedication songs talking about how they miss their girlfriends. This is total UNBELIEVABLE, and how many dumbasses are there out in the world to actually do a STUPID dedication SONG to a STUPID breakup. If you can’t handle a relationship, then get the fuck out.
In my view, love is a stupid emotion that doesn’t even exist. After doing research on LOVE I realized that its a feeling that fills the void of neediness and lack of confidence. If you say you cannot survive in this small world without another soul that you supposedly say that you love, then you are useless and shouldn’t even be living in the first place. This world is about survival of the fittest and if you can’t survive by being alone and independent then I recommend getting out of this planet and go to the moon or something. Humans are animals, and we rely on our survival skills to adapt to society, and we have reflexes for things that we care about. An example would be when we lose a hundred dollars on the street, we immediately start looking for that hundred dollars, because it presents itself as an importance to your life. (unless your filthy rich) Many guys treat a woman like a hundred dollars and immediately fall completely for someone, and then they present like they would risk their life for this stupid someone that they meet for a few days or months.
There are so many men out there that are falling into this trap of love, and believing that its happiness. Its a false happiness that happens for a moment and after this moment is gone, you are in the state of hell and begging for survival from some other piece of ASS out there in the world. Like I stated before, if you can’t handle being alone in the world then get the hell out.
PS. Im not saying that all relationships are bad and are doomed for failure, but if your gonna get into arguments and break up with a girl and then you dedicate a song for her on the radio. Then I believe your piece of meat. Get a day job and find a hobby, because no girl is worth going through pain.
Project HICOMMUNICATION
Jan 16th
Every since I left my position with Clearwire, many have already known that i’ve been working on a project for a while. This wasn’t really a top secret project, but I invested a lot of capital and a lot of time into this project. In matter of fact a lot of people don’t even know what this project was about or better yet (the name). Although I left Clearwire my ties with them have still been strong, and to this date I have still never stopped doing what I was bred and trained to do. Im not sure if it was faith or destiny that led me down this road, but its rockiest journey, I’ve been on so far. In these lasts few month, I would like to introduce everyone to a project HICOMMUNICATION.com
Beginning Janurary 19, 2010 HICOMMUNICATION.com will go LIVE, and for all you bloggers I present to you HICOMMUNICATION.
UPDATE: Postponed until further notice.
What could you possibly desire?
Jan 15th
I was browsing through some old music videos tonight, and recently bumped into this music video from Akon – titled Right Now (Na na na). The thing that stood out to me the most was the quote “When you have everything, What Could you possibly desire?” All of a sudden Akon is walking down a hallway and then moves into the ocean with a massive quote stating “The one you love the most.” In my opinion this is total ghetto cliche, just to simply hype up all those kdrama girls out there that don’t listen to hiphop/rap music.
But, after looking at this video these few words kept me thinking about what I could possibly desire in my life. At this point in time, I am an emotionless monster. I have not felt anything at all but FEAR for the past couple days. My sales have sucked personally since the beginning of this month, and I have no clue why. Couple days after the launch of my business I convinced a person from canceling the service to walking out with another new equipment with a big smile on his face. Sometimes, I wonder if I am losing my touch, but when I look back I realized that I went into two years of sales training, and with another year of random cold approaching. So why do I have fear? and what is fear?
TO BE CONTINUED
Quote of the Day
Jan 13th
Couldn’t get this out of my head the whole day.
“The Key to Success is for you to make a habit, throughout your life, of doing the things that you fear.” Vincent Van Gogh (1853-1890).
The Recreation and the Rebirth
Jan 13th
Its been a long time since I was able to get back into blogging. The last design has been destroyed by a server outage and I will be working on customizing this theme to feel a little more like me. So here are the upcoming updates that I had in mind. I will begin to structure this site to focus more on Functionet Design Studios. I will be broadcasting a little more info on events that I will be attending and also some interesting things about my life and its challenges. I haven’t really went in-depth yet about being MIA for almost 3 months, but I will be sure to fill everyone in on the projects that I have been working on.
I’ve structured this site to intermingle with its sister site http://www.functionet.com. I will also be working on this blog so its AJAX friendly, with some cool icons as well as some new coding.
Work-In Progress:
- Quote App on Sidebar
- Music App on Sidebar
- Integrating the Latest Web-Design that I Publish
So to begin this New Year, I present to you the REBIRTH of Tony-Ng.com